HOLY CRAP THE JOURNAL IS BACK!!!!

I stopped doing this a long time ago... but I think it is time for me to start it back up. I have many adventures coming up in the future, and want to be able to remember them... so a journal is the way to go! So pretty much this journal is for me to look back on and go "ooh yeah, I did that!"

I just finished up my documentary on Native Americans... and I am very proud of it! I just got word today that it may end up on PBS which is very exciting. Some very important people are watching it tuesday, and after that it may go to even more important people (by important I mean "State leader's" important haha). Music is treating me really good... we will start touring in one month and I can't wait! We need to write like a zillion songs and I couldnt be happier to be writing music more often. I have been a little frusterated with it for my own reasons, but I am sure it will be ironed out. Our manager Patrick seems to be handling us very well... I am sure we have great things in our future because we work for it. I went shopping with my mom today and it's about time that I spent some time with her. I have been soo busy it sucks sometimes. On a negative note, I broke up with my girlfriend Trista and am not happy about that. The weird thing that I have found that not dating her is almost like dating her.. I know it sounds weird but I have never been soo confused over a girl in my life. No relationship is without problems, I just think it sucks she never gave it a chance to turn into something special. The weirdest thing is that I am not really hurt over this.... mostly because I wouldnt change anything that I did. I cared and still do care for her... but you can only reach soo far to somebody until you fall on your face. It takes a hand coming back to support you when you are leaning. This is the first time in my life where I am not sure if I even want a girlfriend anymore... I have been burnt too many times in the past and I am not even sure if I have the time or will to put the effort in anymore. I am sure this will all work itself out... there are no bitter feelings towards her, and I really do want whats best for both of us. I guess I just liked her a little more then she liked me, but no biggie. I have lots of love. Niagra falls was an amazing experience... but given my current situation, maybe an I-pod would have been a better purchase haha. I still like the girl a lot and maybe its not over... but I cant think like that ya' know.

In other news I can't stop singing "YOUR BEAUTIFUL"... I love it and hate it at the same time. I do however love that it pisses Mike off when I sing it haha. Chupacabras are scarring the hell out of me and I so is the moth-man. My current quote is "sooooo just something to think about" in a gay lisp... people seem to enjoy it for some reason and I want things to to be different haha.